'why i m like this????'

When i login to this blog, i have no idea what shall i write....my mind is almost blank....all the days, i take new post and start to write something....sometimes i will post, sometimes i didn't...in the last day, i wrote about something and i deleted....i don't know why?? at that time i didn't publish the post....anyway my mind is not satisfied....the reason is me itself....i m indifferent in my studies....now i have semester break till june 1st....started on may 13th...my sister's marriage is on june 22nd...so all of us are busy with the marriage...we went to KTM on may 14th and came back on 22nd....i took some of my books and assignments....i completed almost one assignment when i was there...we go morning(usually after 8'O clock) to invite the relatives for the marriage and reach home only after 7.30....after that we became tired and all of us go to bed after dinner....so i didn't get time to study when i was there...that is not a problem....i get almost 7 days after that....i did only nearly 60 problems for the placement and studied 2 essays for the series examination....my series starts on june 3rd....there are 6 subjects, 2 labs and also one mini project.....series of one subject is alredy over since that mam's marriage is on may 31st....the remaining 5 subjects:( how i write??? anyway start study....that is the only solution....today i took the book at 7'o clock and start studying....but i feel bore and so i sign in to the blog...upto my 4th standard, i m very regular in my studies....i was in KTM at that time....i joined in a new school in TVM in 5th std....i lost my confidence when i m in that school....i don't know why??? i studied in malayalam medium till 4th...when i joined the school in TVM, headmistress of that school forced my father to put me in english medium since that was the first batch of that school for the english medium....anyway lot of thanks to that sister....but in 5th std, i m not able to follow the classes and i m not interested in studies because i didn't understand anything since all the subjects are in english....when i came home, i go to bed after eating and watching TV....i didn't take atleast one book....anyway after 5th i m slightly improved in english and i was able to follow the classes...but my studies are going worse....but in the exam, i scored almost good marks...i m very weak in Hindi at that time....i got only 17 or 18 out of 50....18 is needed to pass the subject...once i got 17 for Hindi...that means i failed...i started crying since that was the first time i failed in a subject and i requested to give 0.5 marks more to the sister....but she didn't gave....i don't know why....my english improved to some more extent at that time...i joined for tuition in 10th std...that sir was very strict...almost 8 of my classmates was there for tuiton...all these 8 are good in their studies....we are very close friends....these friends help me a lot to improve my studies....thanks to them also....he asked questions daily....if not answered he beat us...so i started to study regularly and i scored very good mark in my 10th std....like that i also got good mark in 12th std and somewhat good rank in entrance exam....thus i joined in an engg college....half of first year was good....i got good marks...now also i m not weak in my studies...but lost my interest in studies....again i m saying, i don't know why?? anyway start studying....that is the only solution for this like i said earlier....

Some good thoughts

never cry for any relation in life because for the one whom you cry does not deserve your tears and the one who deserves it will never let you cry....

A face can speak thousand emotions but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels...don't be fooled by the happiest face, it may be masking the most hurting heart...

'i trust u' is a better compliment than 'i love u' because u may not always trust the person u love, but u can always love the person whom u trust....

Choose the one who loves u and not whom u love

Love is like a butterfly...the more u chase it, the more it eludes u...but if u just let it fly, it will come to u when u least expect it....love can make u happy, but often it hurts, but love is only special when u give it to someone who really worth it...so take your time and choose the best...when u love someone its nothing...when someone loves u its something...when u love someone and they love u back, its everything....

My Kerala

Kerala is a narrow green strip of land located in the South West corner of Indian Peninsula which is also known as “God’s Own Country”. It is sandwiched between the Western Ghats mountain range on the East and the Arabian Sea on the West. Kerala is an enchantingly beautiful place with rivers, backwaters, beaches, coconut palms, paddy fields, mountains etc. The National Geographic Magazine refers to it as one of the fifty must see destinations of the world…

River Meenachil

The river is immortalised through the booker prize won, Arundhathi Roy's 'God of Small Things'. Almost all malayali's heard about this river...I was born and brought up in a village in Kottayam District...My 'tharavadu' is near to this river...we take bath in this river...i have lot of cousins...we studied in one school...very closely attached to each other...we went to school together, at lunch time we came to home('tharvadu') and eat together...after the class we again came to this home and played together...very sweet memories...now also we r going together to take bath in this river....on rainy season it is very difficult to take bath....river is full of muddy water....we can't predict the depth of the river at that time....after my fourth standard we leave Kottayam and settled in Trivandrum...One morning(the day we want to come back to TVM), as usual we went to take bath with my mother...that was a rainy season....during rainy season, everyone did is that take water from the river in a bucket and take bath..i know about this..but i want to jump into the river since that was the last day in KTM..i asked to my mother...she agreed just to go one step and take bath..i suddenly jumped in to the river...but i didn't get any place to stand since it is full of mud and leaves during rainy season..i drowned in water...my mother and cousins feared...my mother also jumped in to the river...as she is a gud swimmer she take me from the water and kept me in riverside...anyway thank to God...thank to my mother also...

to the one who is very special to me!!!!!!!

why i created a blog????

i m an engg student..now in 6th sem....now preparing for the campus placements:)when companies r coming,they will ask'what is ur hobby?' since i have no reading habbits, i decided to find out a new hobby other than reading,sleeping,watching TV,listening to music,orkutting etc..don't think that i m a lazy girl...i m above average in studies....now in a reputed engg college...since i m preparing for placements,i m going for coaching...Once in a class, Sir told that blogging is a gud hobby....'just create a blog....from there onwards u r a blogger'...when i heard this i think that 'Oh God,this is a gud hobby for a girl like me'....in that class, i decided that, today when i reach home, i will create a blog....i m very happy that 'i get a gud hobby'!!!! there is a saying in malayalam 'pattiyude vaal panthiraandu kaalam kuzhalil ittalum nivarila'...i don't know what is this saying in English....anyway i m like that....anyway when i reached home, as usual i changed my dress,ate food,watched TV,used net etc...just mean that i didn't do anything gud for me in that day...so my dream of creating a blog was not success in that day:( when i went to my native place last week, i read an article about a girl who is a gud blogger...i forgot her name....forgot the name of the blog also...'the compulsive confessor' something like that....anyway i like that article very much....she wrote all about her life....i m very impressed in that article....again i decided that when i reach home i will create a blog.....anyway that come true...this is my blog!!!! the one that i wish to make for months..........